Trying to make sense of it. My story. Long post

Buttwoman · Post by **Buttwoman** » Thu Mar 30, 2017 7:47 am

I only just discovered this great site. It has answered a lot of questions about myself that have bothered me for years. Most important- I am not the only woman who prefers a cock in the ass over anything else. My girlfriends think it's weird, even a bit sick, definately yucky.
I will start at the beginning. Probably at about 8 years old, whispered in the school yard, I heard that adults make babies when the man sticks his thing in the woman's ass, and pees. Being the curious type, but not having access to a penis, I stuck my hairbrush handle up my ass. I don't know why, I had not yet discovered masturbation. I discovered it being wet, or later, using hand cream, made it go in much easier, and I just kept doing it. I tried other objects, tooth brush handle, sharpie pens, and eventually, my own fingers.
At about twelve years old, I was experimenting with self pleasure with my clitoris. I knew I was doing it right, but it wasn't doing it for me. Once again, hairbrush handle to the rescue. I had my first orgasm, and my hips bucked, driving the hairbrush in deeper. I kept doing that for the next few years, trying everything in the house up my butt. I hadn't started my period yet, but I had a box of tampons (any day now). I discovered I loved them up my butt, with a squirt of water, and I could leave them in at school. My very first dirty little secret.
Elsewhere in these pages is a description of my first time with a man. I won't repeat, but it started my love for anal sex. I learned really quickly how not to have any pain, and by about the forth time, he could slide his cock in quite easily.
Until I was about twenty I had all sorts of 'normal' sex, and tried to convince myself I liked it. I always preferred anal, and it wasn't hard to convince the boys where to put it.
I got really sick of men, and their games, and found I quite liked women. Not exclusively gay, I never stopped liking the cock, but I am a one lover at a time girl, and stayed with my girlfriend for 6 years. She loved receiving oral, and I loved giving. My release was toys. Plugs, and dildos. I never like anything motorized, they just ruined the moment. Nice, big rubber dongs. This got me into size play. Every time I bought a new toy, I quickly moved up a size. It did not take long for me to like what porn sites call monster dildos, or brutal dildos. I was using things that weighed 4 pounds, and bigger than my forearm. They are still my second dirty little secret.
Girlfriend and I broke up, and I played the field for a while. It was never a problem getting a man to go anal. They were like wild dogs. I dislike the terms for women who have a lot of sex, and sex partners, but I was becoming one. Safe sex, and self esteem issues caused me to back off and rethink.
Married a guy, and after that honeymoon period, I told him that it was only anal from then on. He still liked to go down on me, and I tolerated it, and even came every once in a blue moon. We had vaginal, mostly to see if anything had changed. It hadn't. It became much less frequent. Maybe four times a year.
I have forgotten to mention, so I digress a bit- Since very early on, I have been explosively orgasmic. Anal drives me up the wall, and sometimes I come over, and over. Only with really pre-mature shooters, or if something is bothering me a lot, have I ever not come from anal.
My story is coming to an end. My husband left for unrelated reasons, and for two years I've been back to my box of big toys. I have met a new guy, and we seem to hit it off, but we will not sleep together for another couple of days, due to work schedules. I've asked him if he likes anal (of course he does), but have not discussed just how deep THAT rabbit hole runs. I can hardly wait to see the look on his face when I tell him.

adventurista · Post by **adventurista** » Fri Mar 31, 2017 5:03 am

Thanks for sharing that Buttwoman. I am not sure how common it may be but it sounds like anal sex is what you were made for. Always lucky when people can find what they like early. I have known more than a few women, and men, who never figured out what they really liked or their particular kink until much later in life. My wife is a bit like you in that she has massive orgasms from anal. Generally the pattern is that I enter her slowly, as most do, and she either uses a vibrator or her fingers on her clit for a couple of minutes while she relaxes and then always has a great orgasm. From then on it is another massive orgasm about every 2-3 minutes as long as we keep going. Sometimes I stay still inside her and she comes just from he sensation of being full. We can go 15-20-30 minutes until she just can't take any more, then it is my turn. Anyway, I enjoyed your post and look forward to hearing more from you.

French Lover · Post by **French Lover** » Fri Mar 31, 2017 10:24 pm

I am always sad when I read the story of such a wonderful woman... getting out and being married with jerks.
It's true that anal-centered men are, like others, mostly disrespectful towards women. But with your AO lifestyle, you deserve the best

You said that your girlfriends didn't always understand your passion for anal. I am curious to read more about how lesbians (or bi) would react to a proposition of an anal focus relation.

Buttwoman · Post by **Buttwoman** » Sat Apr 01, 2017 6:39 am

French Lover wrote: I am curious to read more about how lesbians (or bi) would react to a proposition of an anal focus relation.

Good question, and one I'm still trying to figure out. I have yet to meet a woman who is as anal as I am. We don't have to have exactly the same interests, and most girls will take a little anal play, I think an AO lifestyle would be difficult. I have found that most gay, or bi women are really centered on oral/clitoral play. Also, the image of women running around with strap-ons is really a male fantasy. Gay women don't want to get fucked, or they would be straight.
I've played with girls with vibrators and dildos up the butt, some rimming, and fingers, but to them it was always foreplay. I tried to get one girlfriend to fist me, but I was not experienced enough, and although it was close, we didn't finish it. If I try again, I'm certain I could take a fist (My fantasy).
It seems men would be a lot more likely to embrace an AO lifestyle just due to the way parts fit together (and all men have anal fantasies)
I'm completely serial monogamous. If I am with somebody, I don't stray, so the idea of a girlfriend, and a guy on the side just for anal needs doesn't work for me.
Girl/girl relationships are hardly ever two bi women. One is exclusively gay. Just works out that way. SOMEWHERE out there is a woman who's dirty little mind is like mine. I love women...the way they smell...boobies....cuddling with a woman is wonderful, but until I find her, men are more equipped for my needs.

Haunter · Post by **Haunter** » Mon Apr 10, 2017 1:46 am

Thanks for your story Buttwoman, I enjoyed reading. What I really can't figure out is why and how most men are rude and undelicate once they hold a lady's ass in their hands. I mean... You have such a precious golden treasure in front of you and spoil everything acting like you were a beast?! That's not worthy for a human, nor a 'lover', to me.