How I think I become to be anal minded
Posted: Mon Dec 04, 2023 2:38 am
This months I've been thinking about my way to understand sex, trying to understand why my anal obsession, and what unleashed it.
Its a theory I'd like to share.
I remember the very first times with my wife, no anal, deeply in love each other, addicted to her. I remember her getting crazy with just a finger in her vag, and all that, all the learning was fun and natural, it was happiness no doubt about.
We reject condoms, we wanted to feel each other, and I never wanted she take pills or other chemicals in her body, so I worked well to get out of her before cumming myself.
She always needed I cum inside her, but both know well that was not simple as do it, the consecuences of a new baby was not in the plan.
I remember myself making mental maths while she was cumming, giving her time to finish and getting myself out to cum too. Sometimes was very close get her pregnant, sometimes she leaves at middle orgasm, sometimes was perfect times. Funny, and not much frustrating for her. Nothing avoid us to repeat in the next half hour.
But that unnatural (and common) behaviour... would have their consecuences in the future.
Blowjobs (and specially cum inside her mouth) was not bad, but never really satisfy me although was the only real option to do it inside my wife. (Nowdays I fucking hate when I see an anal video and the man cums out... I can't avoid myself damn him)
After some years we try anal, and hey, that was pure blessing, to not need to get out. I liked, a lot, and she was somehow curious about, but nothing that really take their real attention.
Of course, I wanted more, and she adapted to me as well as she could, not really always, but it happened every now and then.
After twenty years and two childs, I was automatized. When she was about to cum, I was still hard and enjoying the situation with no possibility to cum myself, but getting fun making her to believe I was about to discharge a load inside her, moaning, growling, whispering in her ear how I was about to full her of cum and probably getting her pregnant.
But my automatization was growing out of my own control without realize myself, and I started to "drop the anchor" too early. Unlike at the beginning, when she stated to reach the orgasm, I started to laught a little bit, remembering all that "fake" orgasms I gave to her and how fun was. But the ugly truth is, I was not horny by the situation when I should to be, I started to fell myself semi hard in that critical situation, and people, that is Not funny at all. The only thing that really got me hard is to fuck her ass. I'm doing a thing, but my mind is in another one. I can't stop think in the hole where I can freely cum, till the point herself realizes about that.
She is not sad to see that situation, but is starting to be annoyig for both, at least, she understands about that 20 unnatural years doing weird things in my mind to let both enjoy and not screw up with another baby. Our two kids have been intended, so no complains about my method and timings for her side.
She is trying to fit this situation, but the fix should be in my mind. Although honestly, I have no clue about how to revert the situation and got back to stay horny as before while I provide her an orgasm as in the past was usual.
I'm in a horrible point struggling against my own instincts, trying not to fuck her ass every minute we are together and with no kids around.
The other day, we started to fuck her as she loves it, and after a while she started to watch my face, she told me, hey, come back, where are you?. Sometimes I can't look her at her eyes. I can't believe what is happening to me. She put in four and offer me her ass, but she was not horny at all.
I went inside her, absent, confused inside my own mind. The only thing I feel, was a deep deep relief. I was stuck inside her ass till the balls, eyes closed feeling my own body. Feeling my blood rushing my brain with no control, feeling how everything destroyed in my mind started healing, all the ruins reverting back to their original position, all the cogs starting to turn again, all the chains and limits blowing up.
She asked me, are you ok?. I still was grabbing firmly her hips, feeling myself deep inside her guts, still in silence.
I started moving slowly, I notice how I was growing myself again to my real size, I stopped to be logic, to discard preconceived ideas about what should be or not. I just let my inner primal hunter go out and I started to fuck her ass with no mercy, ramming her as I really needed long time ago, being again who I was in the past. She never complained or let me know if I was hurting her or if she was enjoying it. The only rational thing I was hoping was not hurt her.
I started to... love her, as usual, as always, turned her back and make anal missionary looking at her, looking her eyes, looking her little smile, looking how her eyes was trying to close and their mouth got open and breath, kissing her, crossing our tonges, looking at her ocassional frown when I was being too hard and finally launching my load in her guts. She was perfectly ok.
That was what you really needed, uh? was all she said.
I become a natural assfucker, I need it, its a torture to have a partner "able to", but not always ready. I hate the chains in sex. I hate realize myself its getting really hard to stay at max when she needs to cum (vag) and I don't know if I would be able to revert things in my mind after so many years, but I need to find the way.
How something so wonderfull, so natural, so.. "simple", could become so complex?.
I realize, I'm perverted, after all, not to cum inside her vag is a very good beginning to become perverted. What can to be a better perversion of cum in pussy that cum in ass?, is the fucking definition of perversion I would say.
I see when she is ass ready, and got her open wide, not limits, no chains, my desire for her vagina returns, specially to get her hornier, but I quicly got tired and my inner instinct wants to ram mercilessly, mercilessly, out of control, that beautiful fascinating ass.
I guess that is not an uncommon story, I see very probable this has happend to more mens and husbands, you will tell.
Its a theory I'd like to share.
I remember the very first times with my wife, no anal, deeply in love each other, addicted to her. I remember her getting crazy with just a finger in her vag, and all that, all the learning was fun and natural, it was happiness no doubt about.
We reject condoms, we wanted to feel each other, and I never wanted she take pills or other chemicals in her body, so I worked well to get out of her before cumming myself.
She always needed I cum inside her, but both know well that was not simple as do it, the consecuences of a new baby was not in the plan.
I remember myself making mental maths while she was cumming, giving her time to finish and getting myself out to cum too. Sometimes was very close get her pregnant, sometimes she leaves at middle orgasm, sometimes was perfect times. Funny, and not much frustrating for her. Nothing avoid us to repeat in the next half hour.
But that unnatural (and common) behaviour... would have their consecuences in the future.
Blowjobs (and specially cum inside her mouth) was not bad, but never really satisfy me although was the only real option to do it inside my wife. (Nowdays I fucking hate when I see an anal video and the man cums out... I can't avoid myself damn him)
After some years we try anal, and hey, that was pure blessing, to not need to get out. I liked, a lot, and she was somehow curious about, but nothing that really take their real attention.
Of course, I wanted more, and she adapted to me as well as she could, not really always, but it happened every now and then.
After twenty years and two childs, I was automatized. When she was about to cum, I was still hard and enjoying the situation with no possibility to cum myself, but getting fun making her to believe I was about to discharge a load inside her, moaning, growling, whispering in her ear how I was about to full her of cum and probably getting her pregnant.
But my automatization was growing out of my own control without realize myself, and I started to "drop the anchor" too early. Unlike at the beginning, when she stated to reach the orgasm, I started to laught a little bit, remembering all that "fake" orgasms I gave to her and how fun was. But the ugly truth is, I was not horny by the situation when I should to be, I started to fell myself semi hard in that critical situation, and people, that is Not funny at all. The only thing that really got me hard is to fuck her ass. I'm doing a thing, but my mind is in another one. I can't stop think in the hole where I can freely cum, till the point herself realizes about that.
She is not sad to see that situation, but is starting to be annoyig for both, at least, she understands about that 20 unnatural years doing weird things in my mind to let both enjoy and not screw up with another baby. Our two kids have been intended, so no complains about my method and timings for her side.
She is trying to fit this situation, but the fix should be in my mind. Although honestly, I have no clue about how to revert the situation and got back to stay horny as before while I provide her an orgasm as in the past was usual.
I'm in a horrible point struggling against my own instincts, trying not to fuck her ass every minute we are together and with no kids around.
The other day, we started to fuck her as she loves it, and after a while she started to watch my face, she told me, hey, come back, where are you?. Sometimes I can't look her at her eyes. I can't believe what is happening to me. She put in four and offer me her ass, but she was not horny at all.
I went inside her, absent, confused inside my own mind. The only thing I feel, was a deep deep relief. I was stuck inside her ass till the balls, eyes closed feeling my own body. Feeling my blood rushing my brain with no control, feeling how everything destroyed in my mind started healing, all the ruins reverting back to their original position, all the cogs starting to turn again, all the chains and limits blowing up.
She asked me, are you ok?. I still was grabbing firmly her hips, feeling myself deep inside her guts, still in silence.
I started moving slowly, I notice how I was growing myself again to my real size, I stopped to be logic, to discard preconceived ideas about what should be or not. I just let my inner primal hunter go out and I started to fuck her ass with no mercy, ramming her as I really needed long time ago, being again who I was in the past. She never complained or let me know if I was hurting her or if she was enjoying it. The only rational thing I was hoping was not hurt her.
I started to... love her, as usual, as always, turned her back and make anal missionary looking at her, looking her eyes, looking her little smile, looking how her eyes was trying to close and their mouth got open and breath, kissing her, crossing our tonges, looking at her ocassional frown when I was being too hard and finally launching my load in her guts. She was perfectly ok.
That was what you really needed, uh? was all she said.
I become a natural assfucker, I need it, its a torture to have a partner "able to", but not always ready. I hate the chains in sex. I hate realize myself its getting really hard to stay at max when she needs to cum (vag) and I don't know if I would be able to revert things in my mind after so many years, but I need to find the way.
How something so wonderfull, so natural, so.. "simple", could become so complex?.
I realize, I'm perverted, after all, not to cum inside her vag is a very good beginning to become perverted. What can to be a better perversion of cum in pussy that cum in ass?, is the fucking definition of perversion I would say.
I see when she is ass ready, and got her open wide, not limits, no chains, my desire for her vagina returns, specially to get her hornier, but I quicly got tired and my inner instinct wants to ram mercilessly, mercilessly, out of control, that beautiful fascinating ass.
I guess that is not an uncommon story, I see very probable this has happend to more mens and husbands, you will tell.