How it was before and guilty feelings
Posted: Sat Feb 10, 2024 4:22 am
There's a lot of discussion about how great anal sex is and moving towards an anal-only lifestyle but not so much about how it was for people before.
I'll never forget how things used to be between my girlfriend and myself. I used to feel huge guilt about my indifference to her pussy and worry that there was something wrong with me. All I wanted and lived for was to look at and play with her ass. I thought that her anus was the most perfect and beautiful thing I had ever seen. I'd tell her that but she'd often look embarrassed by the attention.
Our sex life was probably very average or ordinary and most people would have thought it normal and not complained. But every time I fucked her vagina I felt almost nothing or a numbness. I'd cum and it was over. Blink and you'd miss it kind of thing. Even my girlfriend in retrospect wasn't all that enthusiastic, but it was all we knew and what everyone does. I thought we were stuck with unsatisfying sex forever and it started to get me down, all the while still feeling bad about my preferences. I think if we had carried on as we were maybe we wouldn't be together today.
Only when we introduced anal did things slowly start to change. It wasn't just the increased pleasure (and that difference did blow my mind). My girlfriend became more attractive to me overall. We got along better in our everyday life and we felt more connected. Slowly she became more responsive sexually and would initiate sex more often too. It was wonderful to see her over time relax and not feel embarrassed about using her anus for sex. These days she can see the funny side of how she would make excuses not to do anal.
Now I'm free of my guilt about her pussy. If anything, being anal-only has made me appreciate it more. I can look at it and think it is pretty in its way. Often I'll cup it in my hand or rub it during sex and I can enjoy that. Most of all I love how it is now always empty and I don't feel at all bad about saying so.
I'll never forget how things used to be between my girlfriend and myself. I used to feel huge guilt about my indifference to her pussy and worry that there was something wrong with me. All I wanted and lived for was to look at and play with her ass. I thought that her anus was the most perfect and beautiful thing I had ever seen. I'd tell her that but she'd often look embarrassed by the attention.
Our sex life was probably very average or ordinary and most people would have thought it normal and not complained. But every time I fucked her vagina I felt almost nothing or a numbness. I'd cum and it was over. Blink and you'd miss it kind of thing. Even my girlfriend in retrospect wasn't all that enthusiastic, but it was all we knew and what everyone does. I thought we were stuck with unsatisfying sex forever and it started to get me down, all the while still feeling bad about my preferences. I think if we had carried on as we were maybe we wouldn't be together today.
Only when we introduced anal did things slowly start to change. It wasn't just the increased pleasure (and that difference did blow my mind). My girlfriend became more attractive to me overall. We got along better in our everyday life and we felt more connected. Slowly she became more responsive sexually and would initiate sex more often too. It was wonderful to see her over time relax and not feel embarrassed about using her anus for sex. These days she can see the funny side of how she would make excuses not to do anal.
Now I'm free of my guilt about her pussy. If anything, being anal-only has made me appreciate it more. I can look at it and think it is pretty in its way. Often I'll cup it in my hand or rub it during sex and I can enjoy that. Most of all I love how it is now always empty and I don't feel at all bad about saying so.