aNewFrivolity wrote: ↑Sat Mar 16, 2024 3:05 amI agree with Backdoorlover that what you describe sounds like a bit of a BDSM dynamic between your boyfriend and you. Some effects of going AO you describe sound like you enjoy it very much, others like you're at least unsure or even unhappy with them.
Are you fully happy with the decision to go AO? Did your boyfriend just decide on it, or did you have a word in the discussion as well?
And how does your husband fit into all of this?
It's a very complex situation to say the least.
I can't say yet that enjoy it more overall yet. I can say there are some things i do enjoy more. Trying to see how i can make the most of the experience.
Lack of vaginal and clitoral stimulation is really difficult at the moment; but at the same time its been amplifying other sensations and feelings. So im not going to say I hate it.
As frustrated as I am right now with not having and orgasm the past month, Im loving the heightened mental and emotional state. Im really interested in seeing where this will take me.
I actually cried to my bf after making love yesterday in a complete state of surrender. I feel so much more needy and submissive. Ive always been quite aggressive. Its a very different dynamic for me. It feels so feminine to be like this. I never know I could be like this, or that this was even in my nature.
My bf did discuss this with me as kind of a commitment thing with him he wanted to try with me for our relationship. I can say I have been very committed to sex with him since we started this.- no other hookups or partners except for those he tells me to have sex with. And its always been with him there. This is the closest i have ever been to being in an exclusive relationship
I am happy with the decision to try this lifestyle and am glad im taking the challenge and commitment.
My husband does not know about my other life and my bf and all.