Realme from USA

[Realme]

Hey this is Realme and just found this site. I live on the eastcoast, I am 40 year old male and married to my wife of 5+ years that hates anal sex. I coming to a point in my life that I can no longer lock away memories only for them to resurface constantly throughout my life and I'm really just venting, trying to figure out new ways to deal with my life through different channels and it might take some time to full answer this simple intro question that I have been pondering all my life.

I have a pretty good memory for starters and I have been gathering information from family here and there and trying to figure out my puzzling life. So it may take some time to answer the simple intro question in it's entirety and multiple entries is probably required.

My mother of European and navo decent was married before and had my older step sister before meeting my dad. She worked multiple jobs and left me and my brother to basically watch each other at times. She has tendencies to just drop things and pursue her best interests and return later when times are more favorable.

My mother tried to kill herself while she was pregnant with me. My mother had surgery to remove gallstones while pregnant with me and had dirty syringes used and had post infection that was cured.

Different sources say that my mother tried to kill me by sufficating me as a new born but couldn't go through with it and some say that it was an accident that she left me face down as an infant in a pile of clothing and went into the other room but was able to revive me when she came back. (Kinda makes me think if had brain damage)

Father is an immigrant from Greece with a porno addiction and (mom used to say he loved shemales but I never found any of that porn), alcoholic, worked multiply jobs to take care of us and beat me with a wrench atleast once that I can recall. Beat my older sister bad enough that teachers discovered it and took court action but my sister lied and ended that endeavor; so my dad sent my sister away to live with uncle and aunt on the west coast.

I can't recall wearing them but pictures do confirm myself wearing metal leg braces kinda like Forest Gump. (Not sure the cause but mom says I was very eager to walk, whatever the fuck that means.)

I remember my mother taking me some doctor for some sort of testing. They wanted me to see if I can twist my tongue, grab both hands and try to unwrap my hands in the opposite direction with out letting go of you follow what I mean. Can you walk on your toes and other tests I can't recall. (I always thought they were testing me if I was retarded but now it could have been professor x trying to recruit me for th x-men)

About myself? Where do I start.... from an early age (I'm thinking about 1st grade for myself) my older brother and myself found a massager in our parents bedroom, along with hundreds of my dads porno films and magazines.

So we don't know what the fuck all this stuff is and start playing with the massager and my brother start rubbing the massager on his dick and told me to do the same thing. I remember we were getting hard and started showing off our dicks to each other. (Reflecting back sure makes me think wtf!)

I was a little guy and my mom always used to pack us huge meals when she needed to use baby sitters. I recall this service that watched us and forced all the kids to eat everything that was sent with them before cartoon and if you couldn't or wouldn't eat everything you were punished and made fun of in front of the other kids and sent to bed early. (I still have this tendency to finish everything on my plate and drink everything before myself, I wonder why I'm almost 400lbs now.)

To be continued...:.

[singleinDC]

I'm sorry about your troubles but I don't think think this is the proper site for this...

[INDANALM]

Real or Not what has this got to do anything with this site ?
Edit : This better be epic. Or Ban please.