Hi there
Posted: Mon Jul 03, 2017 12:53 pm
Hi there,
I’m a new member to the forum and I thought I’d introduce myself and explain why I have chosen AO. It’s a bit drawn out and wandering story as I’m pretty sure situation while I won’t say is unique it is certainly rare.
I listed my sex as Trans and for clarification I’ll say MTF with constraints. Growing up a boy was not very fun. While I had friends and fun childhood I always knew something was wrong. I never even knew there was a thing as Transgender back then. Secretly playing in my sister’s closet when nobody was around. Hiding my innermost feelings that I wished I could wake up a girl.
After High School, I joined the Navy. Figured it would “Make a Man” out of me. Of course, overseas I discovered there was such a thing as Trans and wow did it open my eyes. But of course, back then there was not even a Don’t ask don’t tell situation so I kept my mouth shut and continued to hide.
Fast forward many years and I retire from the Navy. Never ended up in any lasting relationship and came to the decision that I need to take steps to be myself. Went the whole counseling route. Worried about disappointing/angering my family when they find out. Figured I had time. I mean HRT takes a while before anything starts to show right. I finally get my first shots and within a week I almost die. Some heart defect that was undiagnosed and wham dreams crushed. Well silver lining, no need to tell friends and family as I’m stuck as I am. A woman trapped in an aging male body. It’s enough for some people to take drastic steps. But not me. I’m too stubborn lol. Hell, I am not letting my PTSD get me no way will I let this either.
So now you know a bit of my background. Now my reasons for AO. All those years of hiding I’ve had a few relationships. They of course were doomed from the start but I did mention that I’m stubborn right. One reason I can say is that out of all the times I’ve had straight vaginal sex I can count the number of times on one hand that I orgasmed. By myself there is no problem. Not a lot of pleasure but it is a release of tension. Anal play is pleasurable but a lot of work solo. Finding a partner is just about a non-existent possibility as there is no gay community around here and plus my situation is so messed up what gay guy wants a guy who’s a woman but trapped in an aging male body lol. Then I discovered my mechanical partner. And wow. While I have yet to have the full blown anal orgasm, I have been able to have a regular one while that stupid tube of flesh remained decidedly soft. I hope with practice to achieve the full blow and I will continue. I am stubborn.
Ashley
I’m a new member to the forum and I thought I’d introduce myself and explain why I have chosen AO. It’s a bit drawn out and wandering story as I’m pretty sure situation while I won’t say is unique it is certainly rare.
I listed my sex as Trans and for clarification I’ll say MTF with constraints. Growing up a boy was not very fun. While I had friends and fun childhood I always knew something was wrong. I never even knew there was a thing as Transgender back then. Secretly playing in my sister’s closet when nobody was around. Hiding my innermost feelings that I wished I could wake up a girl.
After High School, I joined the Navy. Figured it would “Make a Man” out of me. Of course, overseas I discovered there was such a thing as Trans and wow did it open my eyes. But of course, back then there was not even a Don’t ask don’t tell situation so I kept my mouth shut and continued to hide.
Fast forward many years and I retire from the Navy. Never ended up in any lasting relationship and came to the decision that I need to take steps to be myself. Went the whole counseling route. Worried about disappointing/angering my family when they find out. Figured I had time. I mean HRT takes a while before anything starts to show right. I finally get my first shots and within a week I almost die. Some heart defect that was undiagnosed and wham dreams crushed. Well silver lining, no need to tell friends and family as I’m stuck as I am. A woman trapped in an aging male body. It’s enough for some people to take drastic steps. But not me. I’m too stubborn lol. Hell, I am not letting my PTSD get me no way will I let this either.
So now you know a bit of my background. Now my reasons for AO. All those years of hiding I’ve had a few relationships. They of course were doomed from the start but I did mention that I’m stubborn right. One reason I can say is that out of all the times I’ve had straight vaginal sex I can count the number of times on one hand that I orgasmed. By myself there is no problem. Not a lot of pleasure but it is a release of tension. Anal play is pleasurable but a lot of work solo. Finding a partner is just about a non-existent possibility as there is no gay community around here and plus my situation is so messed up what gay guy wants a guy who’s a woman but trapped in an aging male body lol. Then I discovered my mechanical partner. And wow. While I have yet to have the full blown anal orgasm, I have been able to have a regular one while that stupid tube of flesh remained decidedly soft. I hope with practice to achieve the full blow and I will continue. I am stubborn.
Ashley