Unsuccessful Analonlylifestyle wannabe from Pakistan

[Only-a-Noob]

Hello all,
This is me a married man just turned 30 from a shitty anti anal religiously fanatical country called Pakistan. I love my sexy wife of 6 years and together we have a beautiful baby boy of 19 months. Our life is good......

Our sex life is okay meaning I do everything I can to pleasure her repeatedly without fail. I actually love the sight of female orgasms. I do all I can using all my organs at my disposal to pleasure my wife. However, often times I am left with a feeling of being used but my own addiction to witnessing female orgasms conquers that feeling of doubt in myself. Nevertheless, that feeling has been growing day by day, night by night, from weeks to months and months to years.

There has been missing one thing from my life. One thing that has touched me so deeply that sometimes I dream of running away and this dream is slowly on the verge getting materialized.

I am a man obsessed with performing anal on a woman. I don't know why but it is something I feel very deeply about, so much so that if I had been born in a different life in a different country it would have been a dealbreaker in my relationships.

My wife started becoming a true practicing Muslim two years into our marriage. Apparently in Islam Sodomy is forbidden. From that day hence, I have been denied something I truly value over anything else in my life, the freedom to pleasure a woman with my penis in her ass. Repeatedly confronted by rejection followed by depressive bouts of hopelessness at the thought of a life without anal, hope arose in my heart everytime to the current point in time where my perseverance has yielded some semblance of anal pleasure. I am now allowed to rim my wife and finger her anus till she cums with my tongue on her clit or a vibrator, then put a butt plug in her and fuck her vagina till she cums again. But I am never allowed to put my dick in her ass even though we both know how much, how much she would actually enjoy it cuz she is actually a naughty little whore. Enter fucking religion. Fuck it.

My true heaven, oh what I would not do for a woman, a woman at whose feet I shall lay the stars and everything of this earth I possess, my countless riches, unable to be used for what I desire most due to my country's culture, a woman who would let me pleasure her anally and then suck my dick direct from her beautifully gorgeous dazzling ass that I spent hours cleaning up with milk enemas.

It has come to the point where I am considering selling all my properties, converting the cash into US dollars and getting a permanent residence in Turkey ( the only place I can go due to my fucking pakistani passport), buying a single king bed and bath luxury apartment and investing in Turkish Real Estate. Even if I lose more than Half of my net worth and destroy my family's life on such an endeavor, it would be worth it. Non stop anal even if its only with high class escorts. On the plus side I would be able to feel the infinite skin of gorgeous ladies on my lips, I would be able to worship countless Goddesses and making them tremble with pleasure in my hands. I have no doubt they (devoid of any religious hangups) would return the favor.

Such is the testimony of I, an Unsuccessful Analonlylifestyle wannabe from Pakistan.

[amaizeg]

Man, it's not worth ripping your family apart for this. I would rather say try to make further progress with your wife. She already lets you play with her ass and you say she enjoys it. She committed herself to live according to the strictures of Islam at some point, she might also divert from that path again. If she were so strictly adhering to the statements made in the Hadith and by (mostly) Sunni scholars, then she would also not allow you to use your fingers or buttplugs. Her strict stance is already wavering in that respect, and in the end pleasure and the desire for sexual freedom might win out.

[AnalJay]

Doctrine, doctrine, doctrine…I pray you and your wife will be united. Your marriage bed will not (“can not”) be defiled. Be gentle and love each other on your journey