I'm happy to share that we've resumed fucking, albeit a bit cautiously at first. We tried coconut oil, but switched back to silicone lube after one session. For us it's superior.
The break was good because it provided an opportunity for us to reflect and have an open, honest discussion about how we felt. We decided Bill should join us whenever he wants to and also that me and Bill can be intimate without Randy present. We were all on the same page about wanting these changes. We're not sure how this will play out but we want to explore it rather than trying to control it. It kind of had to happen because it was getting awkward that while making dinner or hanging out, me and Bill barely touch, and then later he's cumming in my ass! So far it's just the occasional kiss or grope, but it's nice to just be able to follow our instincts and desires instead of having to think about it first. Randy has also sat back and just watched Bill fuck me and we all liked it. It adds an additional dynamic.
Although I previously indicated that my feelings toward Bill were platonic - and in some respects they still are - with the frequency of our intimacy, my feelings for him are more tender and very sexual. There's an intensity I haven't previously felt for a third, but I've also never had it go on for so long with one man.
I also finally expressed how I felt that I was more committed to AO than they seem to be. They both were a little clueless that touching my pussy irritated me to the extent it does. I'm amazed at how deeply I've adopted the "fetish" of anal only. Before AO, I liked DP and oral on my pussy. But now it makes me so hot to ignore it and feel everything through my ass. I have already noticed a difference in how I cum since going AO and I want to keep going with it. We are going to do the Anal Only August challenge with no pussy play! Does that happen every year? Will somebody be starting a thread? Please let me know. We are in!!
I'm sure our lifestyle seems strange and/or unworkable to many of you, but it works for us and we find it erotic, joyous and very satisfying. Thank you for not judging and for sending such kind messages, both privately and in the thread. Such a diverse, supportive group of people in this forum.
