Backdoorlover wrote: ↑Sun Feb 13, 2022 10:40 am
.... But now consiously going for something up my ass is weird.
I can appreciate that. The first time I said I wanted something up there felt strange to 'admit'. It was ok if a finger wandered there, in fact I secretly longed for that; but the first time I, as you say, 'consciously' asked for a toy to be involved, was a very strange feeling. Also laying there, about to be penetrated, I felt like I should put up some sort of resistance. As though protocol dictated one should say, 'Oh no, don't!' Now we have a shared toy collection

Yay!
I remember the first time I rimmed my wife properly, before that it was the odd quick, passing lick and she would squirm in surprise and resist just like I mentioned above for me with the toy. One day she lay there and I told her I was going to eat her ass. As I went to, she resisted and squirmed in shyness. I gently told her that this was what we were doing and I was going to take my time over it. She realized she needed to relax and once she did, she loved it. She liked it so much that the next time I was lying on the bed she came up and started licking my ass and ate my ass out. I asked her why she did that, she had never rimmed me before, she really disliked the notion, thought it was gross. She told me that she liked having her ass eaten so much that she realized what I was missing out on and wanted to give me that same pleasure. We love eating each others asses now. I hope you go for it. Find a toy that looks fun and ask her to use it on you. Maybe explain to her that your prostate is a bit like her G-spot so she has an idea of what might feel nice for you. But even with out the prostate being stimulated, the nerves in your ass hole feel great as it is opened and toyed with.