Hello, I honestly don’t know where to begin. I’ll be turning 52 in a couple months, I am married with three beautiful children who are all grown up (mostly). My husband suffers from health issues which results in practically zero intimacy for years. I masturbate often. I have confided in someone, and have been planning to meet, but that’s another story. Anal sex, well where I’m from, its a big deal to stay a virgin until marriage. Although I married young (19), 4ish years prior to that, I was sexually active, and was regularly engaged in anal sex. Culturally, it was unspeakable to do such a thing, it was viewed as acting lower than a dog, but it turned me on. It really was such a big turn on, and it was some of the best sex in my life. I never shared that with my husband, he is a bit older than me and we don’t talk very much about sex directly. Anyways, fast forward to the present, masturbation was usually at the end of the day for me in the shower, with my left middle finger in my butt, and rubbing myself with my right hand to orgasm. However these past few months I have been more aroused than usual, and when that happens I am capable of climaxing with just a finger in my butt. The one I confide in has encouraged me to embrace my wild side and simply let myself “get crazed” as we call it. I genuinely became concerned that, going 5 weeks now, I’ve been climaxing up to 3 times in the morning before work, and many many times in my shower after work, purely with a finger in my butt and sometimes my other hand playing with my breasts. Not touching my pussy whatsoever. I feel as though I am becoming more and more aroused with each passing day, and it’s frankly terrifying how incredible my orgasms are becoming. Yesterday out of desperation for answers, I Googled “anal only” and found this community. I have read a bit of the forum and blog, and I feel both relieved, and thrilled, but still terrified. Even now as I type this at work, (in an office) sitting in my chair, I’m slightly exaggerating my posture and arching my lower back subtly, while slightly bouncing up and down in my chair. I’ve had to go to the bathroom to keep from making a mess with my arousal, and I literally can orgasm like this. Yes, it has gotten to a point where simply sitting is stimulating. It’s maddening, and sometimes it gets to a point where I feel as though my hands are shaking, and my back and shoulders feel strained and exhausted. This is not due to weight or other issues, I am in great shape and exercise regularly, and I take very good care of myself. Reading through this site has brought to light the concept of anal only for me. It’s no longer something I simply do without acknowledging to myself. This realization had me up late into the night last night, and this morning I was so excited I put a finger in my butt as soon as I woke up and had one of the biggest orgasms of my life, I actually squirted a little. It was so strong that I had to press my face into the pillow, straining my neck a little. Anyways, that’s all for now I suppose. Thank you for reading.